{"id":1424,"date":"2025-03-25T16:32:53","date_gmt":"2025-03-25T16:32:53","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/?p=1424"},"modified":"2025-03-25T16:32:53","modified_gmt":"2025-03-25T16:32:53","slug":"isa-mesihin-armagani","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/?p=1424","title":{"rendered":"\u0130sa Mesih\u2019in Arma\u011fan\u0131"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u0130sa Mesih\u2019in Arma\u011fan\u0131<\/strong><\/h2>\n

\"65Uyanmakta ve odaklanmakta zorlan\u0131rken ba\u015f\u0131m a\u011fr\u0131yordu ve omuzlar\u0131m\u0131n \u00fczerinde a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131k hissediyordum. \u00d6nceki gecenin sarho\u015fluk c\u00fcmb\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnden eve nas\u0131l ya\u015f\u0131yor vaziyette d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fc merak ediyordum. G\u00fcn i\u00e7inde, Beyrut\u2019daki en iyi t\u0131p okullar\u0131ndan biri olan Saint Joseph \u00dcniversitesi\u2019ndeki staj\u0131mda \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum. Geceleri de kad\u0131nlarla i\u00e7ki i\u00e7ip \u015famata yap\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n

L\u00fcbnan\u2019da do\u011fdum ve kiliseyle ba\u011flant\u0131l\u0131 okullara devam ettim. Akademik olarak ba\u015far\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131m ama ahlak i\u00e7in not verecek olsalard\u0131 s\u0131n\u0131fta kal\u0131rd\u0131m. Din dersim sonsuz kaderim hakk\u0131nda rahatlat\u0131c\u0131 olan yan\u0131tlar vermedi\u011fi i\u00e7in \u00f6l\u00fcm d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesinin deh\u015fetine tak\u0131l\u0131 kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n

T\u0131p fak\u00fcltesinden mezun oldup staj\u0131m\u0131 tamamlad\u0131ktan sonra ABD\u2019ye gittim ve \u00fcroloji e\u011fitimi ald\u0131m. Kendi muayenehanemi a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcney Kaliforniya\u2019ya \u00e7ekildim. Los Angeles bana bir \u015feker kutusu gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Zevkler ve kayg\u0131s\u0131z ya\u015fam yayg\u0131nd\u0131. Ben de b\u00fct\u00fcn bu zevklere kat\u0131l\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n

Bir ak\u015fam hi\u00e7bir plan\u0131m yoktu. Bu s\u0131ra d\u0131\u015f\u0131 bir durumdu \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc takvimim genellikle partiler veya mesle\u011fimle ilgili i\u015flerle dolu olurdu. Se\u00e7eneklerim \u00fczerinde d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrken bir anda plans\u0131z bir \u015fekilde Kutsal Kitap\u2019\u0131 a\u00e7ma iste\u011fi duydum. B\u00f6yle bir istek duymamdan \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fc \u015fok oldu\u011fum i\u00e7in kendi kendime \u015f\u00f6yle dedim, “Nereden ba\u015flayaca\u011f\u0131m?” Kitapl\u0131\u011f\u0131ma gitti\u011fimde ger\u00e7ekten Kutsal Kitap\u2019\u0131 okuyacak olmamdan dolay\u0131 hala \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nd\u0131m. Nereden ba\u015flayaca\u011f\u0131mdan emin olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m halde, alelacele bir zamanlar \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131m, biraz dindar olan bir gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n\u0131 arad\u0131m ve ona sordum. Tek bir kelimeyle yan\u0131t verdi: “Romal\u0131lar.” (\u2018Romal\u0131lar\u2019 \u0130ncil\u2019de bir b\u00f6l\u00fcmd\u00fcr.)<\/p>\n

Hemen konu\u015fmay\u0131 bitirdim ve Kutsal Kitap\u0131 alarak yatak odama girdim. Okurken a\u00e7\u0131lan ayetlerle kendimi s\u0131k\u0131ca ele ge\u00e7irilmi\u015f gibi hissettim. Bu ayetlerin sadece birinci y\u00fczy\u0131l i\u00e7in de\u011fil, benim i\u00e7in de yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f olmas\u0131 beni \u00e7ok etkiledi. Yazar benim g\u00fcnahlar\u0131m hakk\u0131nda konu\u015fuyormu\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrken susup \u00f6ylece kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Hemen hemen hepsi orada s\u0131ralanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131! Daha da rahats\u0131z edici olan Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n g\u00fcnahtan nefret ediyor olmas\u0131yd\u0131. B\u00f6ylece, belli bir ayeti okumak benim i\u00e7in rahatlat\u0131c\u0131 oldu, \u015f\u00f6yle diyordu,<\/p>\n

“\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc herkes g\u00fcnah i\u015fledi ve Tanr\u0131’n\u0131n y\u00fcceli\u011finden yoksun kald\u0131.” (Romal\u0131lar 3:23)<\/p>\n

“Eh,” diye i\u00e7 \u00e7ektim, “en az\u0131ndan bu korkun\u00e7 durumda olan tek ki\u015fi ben de\u011filim.” Yine de kendimi ruhsal olarak kay\u0131p hissederek yata\u011fa gittim.<\/p>\n

Sabahleyin profesyonel bir \u00fcrolog olarak i\u015fe gittim ama i\u00e7imde manevi a\u00e7\u0131dan ba\u015far\u0131s\u0131z oldu\u011fumu biliyordum. \u00d6nceki gecenin s\u00f6zleri t\u00fcm g\u00fcn boyunca d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerime egemen oldu. \u0130\u015ften sonra alelacele eve gittim ve okumaya devam ettim. Arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131n \u00f6nerdi\u011fi kitab\u0131n be\u015finci b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcne geldi\u011fimde te\u015fvik edici \u015fu s\u00f6zlerle kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131m:<\/p>\n

\u201cTanr\u0131 ise bizi sevdi\u011fini \u015fununla kan\u0131tl\u0131yor: Biz daha g\u00fcnahk\u00e2rken, Mesih bizim i\u00e7in \u00f6ld\u00fc.\u201d (Romal\u0131lar 5:8)<\/p>\n

Sonra bir sonraki b\u00f6l\u00fcmdeki bir ayet dikkatimi \u00e7ekti:<\/p>\n

\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00fcnah\u0131n \u00fccreti \u00f6l\u00fcm, Tanr\u0131’n\u0131n arma\u011fan\u0131 ise Rabbimiz Mesih \u0130sa’da sonsuz ya\u015famd\u0131r.\u201d (Romal\u0131lar 6:23)  <\/p>\n

Zihnim o anda ayd\u0131nland\u0131. Bu ayetteki \u2018arma\u011fan\u2019 s\u00f6z\u00fc \u00f6zellikle parlak bir \u015fekilde \u00f6ne \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yordu. Bana anlaml\u0131 gelmiyordu. G\u00fcnah i\u015fledi\u011fimi biliyordum. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fc hak etti\u011fimi biliyordum. “O halde Tanr\u0131 bana neden bir arma\u011fan \u00f6neriyor?” diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

Bu arma\u011fan teklifini elden ka\u00e7\u0131rmak istemedi\u011fim i\u00e7in hemen yata\u011f\u0131m\u0131n kenar\u0131nda, hayat\u0131mda ilk kez Tanr\u0131\u2019ya ger\u00e7ek bir boyun e\u011fmeyle diz \u00fcst\u00fc \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fcm. B\u00fcy\u00fck bir sayg\u0131 i\u00e7inde ve elimde Kutsal Kitap olarak, “Tanr\u0131’n\u0131n arma\u011fan\u0131 ise Rabbimiz Mesih \u0130sa’da sonsuz ya\u015famd\u0131r\u201d s\u00f6zlerini tekrar ettim. Tanr\u0131 y\u00fcre\u011fimi o kadar b\u00fcy\u00fck bir sevin\u00e7le doldurdu ki g\u00f6zlerimden ya\u015flar bo\u015fald\u0131. Sonra yata\u011f\u0131ma gittim ve huzur i\u00e7inde uykuya dald\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Ertesi g\u00fcn o zamandan beri al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131\u011f\u0131m olan bir uygulama ba\u015flatt\u0131m. Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n S\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fcnl\u00fck olarak okumak. Ayn\u0131 ak\u015fam, telefonu al\u0131p k\u0131z arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131 arad\u0131m. Art\u0131k kendisiyle g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015femeyece\u011fimi \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc yapt\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n g\u00fcnah oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledim. Telefonu kapat\u0131rken hayat\u0131mda b\u00fcy\u00fck bir de\u011fi\u015fim oldu\u011funu biliyordum.<\/p>\n

Birka\u00e7 ak\u015fam sonra i\u015ften eve geldim ve dairemdeki ahlaki pisli\u011fi temizleme zaman\u0131 geldi\u011fini s\u00f6yledim kendi kendime. Videolar, dergiler, resimler ve b\u00fct\u00fcn pisli\u011fin gitmesi gerekiyordu. Eski hazinelerimi b\u00fcy\u00fck bir \u00e7\u00f6p torbas\u0131na koydum ve ba\u011flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Dairemin koridorundan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 do\u011fru inerken ilk ruhsal sava\u015f\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131m. Sanki bir ses beni tehdit ediyordu: “E\u011fer bu torbay\u0131 atarsan seni \u00f6ld\u00fcrece\u011fim.” \u00c7\u00f6p kutusuna do\u011fru alelacele giderken kalbim h\u0131zla at\u0131yordu. Tehdit de pe\u015fimdeydi.<\/p>\n

At\u0131k alan\u0131na geldim. Titriyordum ama kararl\u0131yd\u0131m. B\u00fcy\u00fck torbay\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131m ve kutuya att\u0131m. \u0130\u00e7indeki y\u00fckle gerilen torbay\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6p kutusuna ittim. G\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcl\u00fc bir \u015fekilde yere \u00e7arpt\u0131 ve o anda ses durdu. Hala ya\u015f\u0131yordum ve ilk ruhsal sava\u015f\u0131m\u0131 kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 biliyordum.<\/p>\n

Art\u0131k hayat\u0131m\u0131 temizlemek i\u00e7in her zamankinden daha da istekliydim. Kutsal Kitab\u0131m\u2019\u0131 okumak, ba\u015fka H\u0131ristiyanlarla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmak ve dua etmek istiyordum. De\u011fi\u015fmi\u015f bir insan oldu\u011fum da arkada\u015flar\u0131m i\u00e7in de a\u015fik\u00e2rd\u0131. Birka\u00e7 hafta i\u00e7inde olabildi\u011fince \u00e7ok insana yeni inanc\u0131m\u0131 anlatt\u0131m. Da\u011f\u0131tmak i\u00e7in M\u00fcjde bro\u015f\u00fcrleri ald\u0131m, baz\u0131 insanlara telefon ettim ve ba\u015fkalar\u0131na yazd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

K\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre sonra Tanr\u0131 beni harika bir kiliseye y\u00f6nlendirdi. Toplant\u0131da pek \u00e7ok Arap H\u0131ristiyan vard\u0131. B\u00fcy\u00fck \u015eifac\u0131ya ihtiya\u00e7 duyan bir doktor olan ben O\u2019nunla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m ve ba\u011f\u0131\u015flama arma\u011fan\u0131n\u0131 kabul etti\u011fim i\u00e7in ne kadar da mutluydum.<\/p>\n

\u201cBunu duyan \u0130sa onlara, “Sa\u011flamlar\u0131n de\u011fil, hastalar\u0131n hekime ihtiyac\u0131 var” dedi. “Ben do\u011fru ki\u015fileri de\u011fil, g\u00fcnahkarlar\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmaya geldim.”\u201d (Markos 2:17)<\/p>\n

\u201cA\u011fza giren her \u015feyin mideye indi\u011fini, oradan da hel\u00e2ya at\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmiyor musunuz? Ne var ki a\u011f\u0131zdan \u00e7\u0131kan, y\u00fcrekten kaynaklan\u0131r. \u0130nsan\u0131 kirleten de budur. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc k\u00f6t\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler, cinayet, zina, fuhu\u015f, h\u0131rs\u0131zl\u0131k, yalan yere tan\u0131kl\u0131k ve iftira hep y\u00fcrekten kaynaklan\u0131r. \u0130nsan\u0131 kirleten bunlard\u0131r.\u201d (Matta 15:17-20)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u0130sa Mesih\u2019in Arma\u011fan\u0131 Uyanmakta ve odaklanmakta zorlan\u0131rken ba\u015f\u0131m a\u011fr\u0131yordu ve omuzlar\u0131m\u0131n \u00fczerinde a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131k hissediyordum. \u00d6nceki gecenin sarho\u015fluk c\u00fcmb\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnden eve nas\u0131l ya\u015f\u0131yor vaziyette d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fc merak ediyordum. G\u00fcn i\u00e7inde, Beyrut\u2019daki en iyi t\u0131p okullar\u0131ndan biri olan Saint Joseph \u00dcniversitesi\u2019ndeki staj\u0131mda \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum. Geceleri de kad\u0131nlarla i\u00e7ki i\u00e7ip \u015famata yap\u0131yordum. L\u00fcbnan\u2019da do\u011fdum ve kiliseyle ba\u011flant\u0131l\u0131 okullara devam ettim. Akademik…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1424","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1424","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1424"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1424\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1424"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1424"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1424"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}