{"id":1417,"date":"2025-03-25T16:32:53","date_gmt":"2025-03-25T16:32:53","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/?p=1417"},"modified":"2025-03-25T16:32:53","modified_gmt":"2025-03-25T16:32:53","slug":"huzura-ulastim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/?p=1417","title":{"rendered":"Huzura Ula\u015ft\u0131m"},"content":{"rendered":"

Huzura Ula\u015ft\u0131m<\/strong><\/h2>\n

\"55\u00c7ocukken ve gen\u00e7li\u011fimde Tanr\u0131\u2019ya sad\u0131k ve yak\u0131n olmay\u0131 hep istemi\u015fimdir. Her zaman i\u00e7in Tanr\u0131\u2019y\u0131 yarat\u0131c\u0131 ve t\u00fcm yarat\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131n egemeni olarak d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

T\u00fcrkiye\u2019de Bursa\u2019da do\u011fdum ve b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcm. Yoksul oldu\u011fumuz i\u00e7in aile b\u00fct\u00e7esine katk\u0131da bulunmak i\u00e7in ailemdeki herkes \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Ben sokakta simit satard\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Bursa\u2019da bir\u00e7ok mezarl\u0131k vard\u0131r ve ne zaman mezarl\u0131k yan\u0131ndan ge\u00e7sem \u00f6l\u00fcler i\u00e7in dua ederdim. Y\u0131llar ge\u00e7tik\u00e7e Tanr\u0131\u2019y\u0131 daha fazla tan\u0131ma iste\u011fim art\u0131yordu. O\u2019nu tan\u0131mam ve O\u2019nunla canl\u0131 bir ili\u015fkiye sahip olmam gerekti\u011fini hissettim. \u00c7ok az Arap\u00e7a bildi\u011fim i\u00e7in Kuran\u2019da yaz\u0131lanlar\u0131 anlamak i\u00e7in Kuran\u2019\u0131 T\u00fcrk\u00e7e olarak okumaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Daha \u00f6nce bilmedi\u011fim pek \u00e7ok \u015fey \u00f6\u011frendim. Kuran\u2019da okudu\u011fum \u0130slam, M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlar\u0131n ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0130slam\u2019dan farkl\u0131yd\u0131. Kuran\u2019\u0131n yan\u0131 s\u0131ra Hadisleri ve \u0130slam hakk\u0131nda ba\u015fka kitaplar\u0131 da okumaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Tanr\u0131\u2019yla ilgili ger\u00e7e\u011fe kar\u015f\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck bir a\u00e7l\u0131k duyuyordum. Her g\u00fcn namaz k\u0131lmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum. Her \u015feyde elimden gelenin en iyisini yapmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum ama ne kadar gayret etsem de m\u00fckemmel bir M\u00fcsl\u00fcman de\u011fildim.<\/p>\n

Ne zaman dua etsem ya da namaz k\u0131lsam dualar\u0131m\u0131n veya rit\u00fcellerimin Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n huzuruna ula\u015fmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, bunun yerine tavanda tak\u0131l\u0131 kald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissederdim. Dua edip sevap i\u015flemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsam da Tanr\u0131 dualar\u0131ma hi\u00e7 cevap vermedi. \u0130slam\u2019la ilgili ara\u015ft\u0131rmalar\u0131ma devam ederken akl\u0131mda baz\u0131 sorular olu\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131 ve Kuran ve Hadislerde baz\u0131 \u00e7eli\u015fkiler g\u00f6rmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m. Kuran\u2019daki hangi ayetlerin ve Hadislerdeki hangi s\u00f6zlerin do\u011fru oldu\u011funu merak ediyordum. G\u00fcnahlar\u0131m\u0131n ba\u011f\u0131\u015flanmas\u0131n\u0131 merak ediyordum. Sanki ba\u011f\u0131\u015flama yokmu\u015f gibi geliyordu bana. \u00c7\u00f6z\u00fcm bir s\u00fcre cehennem\u2019de ceza \u00e7ekmekti. Bu \u2018bir s\u00fcrenin\u2019 sonunda (cehennem\u2019de birka\u00e7 milyar y\u0131l ge\u00e7irdikten sonra) cennet\u2019e gidebilecektim. Cennet\u2019teki \u00f6d\u00fcller ger\u00e7ekten ilgin\u00e7ti, \u2018bal ve \u015farap akan nehirler\u2019 gibi. E\u011fer M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlar\u0131n bu d\u00fcnyadayken \u015farap i\u00e7meleri yasaksa, neden cennette \u015farap i\u00e7melerine izin verilecekti? Erkeklere cennette \u00f6d\u00fcl olarak cariyeler verilecekti – peki ya kad\u0131nlara?<\/p>\n

Bir s\u00fcre sonra \u0130slam\u2019\u0131n beni Tanr\u0131\u2019ya g\u00f6t\u00fcrecek din olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na ikna oldum. M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlar\u0131n de\u011fi\u015fti\u011fine inand\u0131\u011f\u0131 Tevrat, Zebur ve \u0130ncil\u2019i d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Onlar\u0131 okuyup de\u011fi\u015ftirilip de\u011fi\u015ftirilmediklerini kendi ba\u015f\u0131ma belirlemeye karar verdim. Ayr\u0131ca, Kuran\u2019da Kutsal Kitap\u2019la ilgili ayetlere bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, \u2018i\u00e7inde \u0131\u015f\u0131k ve ger\u00e7ek var\u2019 diyordu. Ayr\u0131ca, Yahudi ve H\u0131ristiyanlara \u2018kendi\u2019 kitaplar\u0131n\u0131 okumalar\u0131 ve \u2018kendi\u2019 kitaplar\u0131ndan bilgelik almalar\u0131 tavsiye ediliyordu. Bunu \u00f6\u011frendikten sonra kendi memleketim olan Bursa\u2019da bir Kutsal Kitap bulmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. \u0130slamla ilgili kitaplar her yerde bulunuyordu. Kutsal Kitap\u2019\u0131 ele\u015ftiren kitaplar vard\u0131 ama her nedense, Kutsal Kitap satm\u0131yorlard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn \u0130slami bir gazetede H\u0131ristiyan misyonerlerle ilgili bir makale okudum. Gazete misyonerlerin mektupla\u015fma adresini veriyordu. Onlara yazd\u0131m. Daha sonra onlara yaz\u0131p \u0130ncil istedim. \u0130\u00e7inde ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m toplumda mevcut kal\u0131plara uyma konusunda b\u00fcy\u00fck bir bask\u0131 oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in kimseye ne yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 s\u00f6ylemedim.<\/p>\n

Daha sonra bana g\u00f6nderdikleri materyali al\u0131p almad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 soran bir mektup ald\u0131m. Bana g\u00f6nderdiklerini almad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 haber verdim. Ayn\u0131 materyali bir kere daha g\u00f6nderdiler ve bu kez elime ge\u00e7ti. Kitap\u00e7\u0131klarda yaz\u0131lanlar, benim \u0130sa Mesih hakk\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcklerimden \u00e7ok farkl\u0131 oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in g\u00f6nderilen materyalleri \u00e7ok ilgin\u00e7 buldum. Okulda din derslerinde bana \u00f6\u011fretilenlerden \u00e7ok farkl\u0131yd\u0131. Bu derslerde genellikle \u0130slam ve \u0130slami bak\u0131\u015f a\u00e7\u0131s\u0131yla di\u011fer dinler hakk\u0131nda \u00f6\u011fretilirdi.<\/p>\n

Misyonerlere \u0130ncil istemek i\u00e7in tekrar yazd\u0131m. Bir \u0130ncil ve H\u0131ristiyanl\u0131k hakk\u0131nda birka\u00e7 kitap\u00e7\u0131k daha g\u00f6nderdiler. \u0130lk kez \u0130ncil\u2019i okudu\u011fumda \u00e7ok ilgin\u00e7 oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u0130sa\u2019n\u0131n d\u00fcnyaya nas\u0131l geldi\u011fini, mucizeler ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftirdi\u011fini ve hatta \u00f6l\u00fcleri diriltti\u011fini anlat\u0131yordu. Bunlar\u0131 okuduktan sonra \u015f\u00f6yle d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm, \u201cBunlar neredeyse 2000 y\u0131l \u00f6nce oldu. Bunlar\u0131n ve \u0130sa\u2019n\u0131n bug\u00fcn benim \u00fczerimde nas\u0131l bir etkisi olabilir?\u201d A\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7as\u0131, \u0130ncil kula\u011f\u0131ma bir roman gibi geliyordu ama i\u00e7imde ilgin\u00e7 duygular uyanmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. \u0130\u00e7imden bir ses bana \u0130ncil\u2019i ikinci kez okumam\u0131 s\u00f6yledi. Ben de okudum. Her \u015fey daha a\u00e7\u0131k g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Yuhanna \u0130ncili\u2019ndeki ayetlere gelince y\u00fcre\u011fimde bir ses bana \u0130sa Mesih\u2019e ve g\u00fcnahlar\u0131m i\u00e7in \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne inanmam\u0131 s\u00f6yledi. Daha \u00f6nce hayat\u0131mda hi\u00e7 b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu nedenle bu sese kulak vermeye karar verdim. \u0130sa Mesih\u2019i, g\u00fcnahlar\u0131m\u0131n bedelini \u00f6demek i\u00e7in \u00f6len Rabbim ve Kurtar\u0131c\u0131m olarak kabul etmek i\u00e7in k\u0131saca dua ettim. Dua ettikten sonra y\u00fcre\u011fimde b\u00fcy\u00fck bir huzur ve sevin\u00e7 hissettim. Sanki yeniden do\u011fmu\u015ftum! Ne kadar da mutluydum!<\/p>\n

O deneyimden sonra Tanr\u0131\u2019yla canl\u0131 ve ki\u015fisel bir ili\u015fkiye sahip oldum. S\u00fcrekli olarak O\u2019nunla konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. En iyi dostum oldu. Cehennem\u2019de ruhuma i\u015fkence etmekten ho\u015flanacak bir Tanr\u0131 de\u011fildi. Aksine, insanlar\u0131n aras\u0131na \u0130sa Mesih olarak gelip g\u00fcnahlar\u0131m i\u00e7in bedeli sa\u011flamak \u00fczere kendini feda eden, seven ve fedakar bir Tanr\u0131\u2019yd\u0131. Ruhu\u2019yla \u015fimdi bende ya\u015f\u0131yor. Tanr\u0131m\u0131z ne b\u00fcy\u00fck!<\/p>\n

Tan\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 okuyan her kimse, l\u00fctfen y\u00fcre\u011finizi Yarat\u0131c\u0131m\u0131z Tanr\u0131\u2019ya a\u00e7\u0131n. \u0130sa Mesih\u2019in kim oldu\u011funu size a\u00e7\u0131klamas\u0131n\u0131 isteyin. B\u00fcy\u00fck Tanr\u0131 duan\u0131za yan\u0131t verecektir.<\/p>\n

Y\u0131lmaz<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Huzura Ula\u015ft\u0131m \u00c7ocukken ve gen\u00e7li\u011fimde Tanr\u0131\u2019ya sad\u0131k ve yak\u0131n olmay\u0131 hep istemi\u015fimdir. Her zaman i\u00e7in Tanr\u0131\u2019y\u0131 yarat\u0131c\u0131 ve t\u00fcm yarat\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131n egemeni olarak d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. T\u00fcrkiye\u2019de Bursa\u2019da do\u011fdum ve b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcm. Yoksul oldu\u011fumuz i\u00e7in aile b\u00fct\u00e7esine katk\u0131da bulunmak i\u00e7in ailemdeki herkes \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Ben sokakta simit satard\u0131m. Bursa\u2019da bir\u00e7ok mezarl\u0131k vard\u0131r ve ne zaman mezarl\u0131k yan\u0131ndan ge\u00e7sem \u00f6l\u00fcler i\u00e7in…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1417","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1417","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1417"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1417\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1417"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1417"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1417"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}