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\u0130sa Nadire\u2019yi Yaln\u0131z B\u0131rakmad\u0131<\/strong><\/h2>\n

\"38\u0130smim Nadire. Babam bir S\u00fcnni M\u00fcsl\u00fcman ve K\u00fcrt a\u015firet lideriydi. Annem ise \u015eii M\u00fcsl\u00fcman ve soylu Kajar ailesindendi. Babam ben d\u00f6rt ya\u015f\u0131ndayken \u00f6ld\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Yedi ya\u015f\u0131ma geldi\u011fimde Tanr\u0131 ve yarat\u0131l\u0131\u015f hakk\u0131nda sorular sormaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Anneme, \u2018Bu d\u00fcnyadaki ya\u015fam\u0131mda kaderime kim karar verdi?\u2019 veya \u2018D\u00fcnya ve g\u00f6kler nas\u0131l yarat\u0131ld\u0131?\u2019 gibi sorular sorard\u0131m. Annem genellikle \u015f\u00f6yle cevap verirdi, \u201cB\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde, nas\u0131l yarat\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sana a\u00e7\u0131klar\u0131m ama d\u00fcnya ve g\u00f6kler, g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyen Tanr\u0131 taraf\u0131ndan yarat\u0131ld\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n

Annem lise e\u011fitimini Tahran\u2019daki prestijli bir Katolik okulda tamamlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Harika bir anneydi. \u0130slam dininin gereklerini yerine getirerek ya\u015famaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. \u0130yi bir M\u00fcsl\u00fcman olmak i\u00e7in hevesliydim. On iki ya\u015f\u0131ma geldi\u011fimde namaz k\u0131lmaya ve oru\u00e7 tutmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. G\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyen Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131mla hissetmek istiyordum. Annem, Tanr\u0131\u2019ya eri\u015fmek ve cennete girmek i\u00e7in \u015funlar\u0131 yapmam gerekti\u011fini s\u00f6yledi:<\/p>\n

Namaz k\u0131lmak ve oru\u00e7 tutmak
Ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc istememek
H\u0131rs\u0131zl\u0131k yapmamak
Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n el\u00e7isi olarak Muhammed\u2019e inanmak
14 ki\u015finin (12 \u0130mam, Muhammed ve k\u0131z\u0131 Fatma) masumiyetine inanmak
Yoksullara zek\u00e2t vermek ve
Mekke\u2019ye hacca gitmek<\/p>\n

Tavsiyesine \u00f6zenli bir \u015fekilde uymaya gayret ettim \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc cennete gitmek istiyordum. Listesinde olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 halde Kuran\u2019\u0131 bile d\u00fczenli bir \u015fekilde okuyordum.<\/p>\n

On alt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131ma geldi\u011fimde, daha sonra e\u015fim olacak adamla tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. \u00c7ok zengin bir adamd\u0131. Evlendikten k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre sonra, e\u015fimden bana Kuran dersi vermesi i\u00e7in bir molla tutmas\u0131n\u0131 istedim. Her per\u015fembe iki saat boyunca bu din \u00f6\u011fretmeninin rehberli\u011fi alt\u0131nda Kuran\u2019\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Yirmi yedi ya\u015f\u0131ma geldi\u011fimde e\u015fimle be\u015f \u00e7ocu\u011fumuz olmu\u015ftu. On y\u0131ld\u0131r Kuran\u2019\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaktayd\u0131m. Fakat Tanr\u0131\u2019y\u0131 yeterince iyi tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hissediyordum- ki\u015fisel olarak tan\u0131m\u0131yordum ve i\u00e7imde huzur bulmuyordum. \u00d6rne\u011fin, Kuran\u2019a g\u00f6re evimde her g\u00fcn \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan insanlar\u0131n bulundu\u011fu ortamlarda \u0130slami \u015fekilde \u00f6rt\u00fcnmeliydim. Bu hi\u00e7 de pratik bir \u015fey de\u011fildi. Bu insanlarla \u00f6rt\u00fcnmedi\u011fim zamanlarda da temas kurdu\u011fum oluyordu. Bu ka\u00e7\u0131n\u0131lmazd\u0131 ama beni \u00e7ok rahats\u0131z ediyordu. Hayat\u0131mda bu s\u0131ralarda, e\u011fer Mekke\u2019ye hacca gidersem tarifi zor bir huzura kavu\u015fabilece\u011fim akl\u0131ma geldi. Mekke, Allah\u2019\u0131n eviydi.<\/p>\n

Mekke\u2019ye hacca gidebilmem i\u00e7in gerekli ayarlamalar\u0131 yapmas\u0131n\u0131 istedi\u011fimde e\u015fim \u00e7ok \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Fakat kabul etti. Kum \u015fehrinde \u00fcnl\u00fc bir Ayetullah<\/em> ile ayarlama yapt\u0131 ve k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre i\u00e7inde pasaportum, hac i\u00e7in \u00f6zel giysilerim ve b\u00fct\u00fcn di\u011fer ayr\u0131nt\u0131lar haz\u0131rland\u0131. Kafilemizdeki en gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n hac\u0131 bendim. \u0130\u00e7imdeki sevin\u00e7 anlat\u0131lmazd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Mekke\u2019de, \u00e7e\u015fitli yerlerdeki b\u00fct\u00fcn dini t\u00f6renleri b\u00fcy\u00fck bir istekle yerine getirim. G\u00fcnahlar\u0131m, \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f olan anne babam ve b\u00fcy\u00fck anne ve b\u00fcy\u00fck babalar\u0131m i\u00e7in koyun kurban ettim. Bunu yaparak \u00f6l\u00fclerin cenneti girmelerine yard\u0131m edebilece\u011fime inan\u0131yordum. Birka\u00e7 k\u0131sa g\u00fcn i\u00e7inde, \u0130ran\u2019a d\u00f6nen u\u00e7aktayd\u0131m. Hac bitmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n

\u0130lk hac ziyaretimi tamamlam\u0131\u015f olmaktan \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fc kendimi olduk\u00e7a memnun hissediyordum. E\u011fer siz de hacca gittiyseniz bu hissi bilirsiniz. U\u00e7a\u011f\u0131m\u0131z Tahran\u2019a inmeden yar\u0131m saat \u00f6nce, tuvalete gittim ve Mekke\u2019deyken giydi\u011fim y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc ve bedenimi \u00f6rten giysileri \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m. Bunlar\u0131n yerine bir ba\u015f\u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fc ve bileklerime gelen bir pard\u00f6s\u00fc giydim. Koltu\u011fuma d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde hac\u0131 kafilesinin sorumlusu olan molla bana geldi ve kaba bir \u015fekilde \u015f\u00f6yle dedi, \u201cNe yapt\u0131n hac\u0131 han\u0131m? \u00c7ar\u015faf yerine neden ba\u015f\u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fc tak\u0131yorsun? Ba\u015f\u00f6rt\u00fcn\u00fcn alt\u0131nda sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum, biliyor musun? Bu y\u00fczden do\u011frudan cehenneme gidece\u011fini bilmiyor musun?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u015eok olmu\u015f vaziyette ve inanamayarak \u015f\u00f6yle sordum, \u201cBu nas\u0131l bir \u00f6\u011freti\u015f? Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n insan\u0131n y\u00fcre\u011fine bakmas\u0131 gerekmiyor mu?\u201d<\/p>\n

Molla \u015fu s\u00f6zlerle kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k verdi, \u201cHay\u0131r! Kuran\u2019a g\u00f6re insan hicap giysisiyle ve \u015eeriat\u2019la Tanr\u0131\u2019ya yakla\u015f\u0131r- insan\u0131n y\u00fcre\u011finin arzular\u0131yla de\u011fil. \u0130nsan\u0131n y\u00fcre\u011finde ya\u015fayan Tanr\u0131 de\u011fil, \u0130blis\u2019tir!\u201d<\/p>\n

Bu konu\u015fma beni umutsuzluk noktas\u0131na getirdi. \u00dczerime \u00fcmitsizlik \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc hissedebiliyordum. Tanr\u0131\u2019ya \u015f\u00f6yle dedim, \u201cNeden sana ne zaman yakla\u015fmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsam daha da uzakla\u015fm\u0131\u015f buluyorum kendimi? Sana ger\u00e7ekten yak\u0131n olman\u0131n bir yolunu g\u00f6ster bana.\u201d<\/p>\n

K\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre i\u00e7inde \u0130ran\u2019dan ayr\u0131lmay\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m. Bu olas\u0131l\u0131k hakk\u0131nda e\u015fimle konu\u015ftum. Sonunda raz\u0131 oldu ve gerekli ayarlamalar\u0131 yapt\u0131. 1977 y\u0131l\u0131nda e\u015fim, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m ve ben ABD\u2019ye gittik.<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn Ermeni bir arkada\u015f\u0131ma kiliseye gitmeyi arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 s\u00f6yledim. B\u00f6ylece sonraki pazar g\u00fcn\u00fc ikimiz onun kilisesine gittik. Kilise \u00f6nderinden anadilim olan Fars\u00e7ada benim i\u00e7in bir \u0130ncil bulmas\u0131n\u0131 rica ettim. Ertesi g\u00fcn bir tane buldu ve \u00f6nce Matta \u0130ncil\u2019ini okumakla ba\u015flamam\u0131 s\u00f6yleyerek bana verdi. S\u00f6ylediklerini yapt\u0131m. Matta\u2019n\u0131n 28 b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc okudu\u011fumda, ya\u015fayan, ger\u00e7ek sonsuz Tanr\u0131\u2019y\u0131 buldu\u011fumu biliyordum. O\u2019na bunun i\u00e7in \u015f\u00fckrettim, hakk\u0131nda okumu\u015f oldu\u011fum ger\u00e7ek Tanr\u0131\u2019ya iman ettim ve \u0130ncil\u2019in geri kalan\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya devam ettim.<\/p>\n

ABD\u2019ye vard\u0131ktan k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre sonra \u0130ran\u2019da h\u00fck\u00fcmet de\u011fi\u015fti. \u0130ran\u2019daki evimize el konuldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frendik. Ailemin baz\u0131 \u00fcyeleri \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Sonra e\u015fim \u0130ran\u2019a geri \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131ld\u0131. Oraya vard\u0131\u011f\u0131nda tutukland\u0131 ve hapse konuldu. Yedi\u011fi dayaklardan \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fc birka\u00e7 di\u015fini kaybetti ve bir baca\u011f\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n

ABD\u2019de yaln\u0131z kalm\u0131\u015f bir durumda \u00e7ocuklar\u0131ma bak\u0131yordum. Kendimi \u00e7ok yaln\u0131z hissediyordum. Ne yapaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilmiyordum. B\u00fct\u00fcn kayg\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 Rab \u0130sa Mesih\u2019e teslim ettim. \u0130ranl\u0131 arkada\u015flar\u0131m, tan\u0131d\u0131klar\u0131m ve aile \u00fcyelerim, Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n ailemi bu felaketleri g\u00f6ndermesinin nedeninin \u0130slam\u2019\u0131 terk edip H\u0131ristiyan olmam oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylediler! Fakat do\u011fru yolu se\u00e7ti\u011fimden ve \u0130sa Mesih arac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131yla Tanr\u0131\u2019yla ger\u00e7ek bir ili\u015fki buldu\u011fumdan emindim. Hayat\u0131m\u0131n her ayr\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n iyi ellerinde oldu\u011funu biliyordum ve her \u015feyin O\u2019nun iradesine g\u00f6re ger\u00e7ekle\u015fti\u011fini biliyordum. B\u00f6ylece s\u00fcrekli olarak Tanr\u0131\u2019ya dua edip \u015f\u00fckrediyordum.<\/p>\n

\u201cTanr\u0131m da her ihtiyac\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 kendi zenginli\u011fiyle Mesih \u0130sa’da g\u00f6rkemli bir bi\u00e7imde kar\u015f\u0131layacakt\u0131r.\u201d (Filipililer 4:19, \u0130ncil)<\/p>\n

Sonunda sadece evimiz de\u011fil, \u0130ran\u2019daki b\u00fct\u00fcn malvarl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131za el kondu. Fakat Tanr\u0131\u2019ya y\u00fccelik olsun ki, e\u015fim hapisten \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 ve ABD\u2019ye bizim yan\u0131m\u0131za d\u00f6nebildi. Tekrar ABD\u2019de birlikte ya\u015famaya devam ettik. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131z e\u011fitimlerini tamamlayana kadar ikimiz de \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Sonra k\u0131zlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ikisi evlendi. Hayat normal g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu ama aniden bir darbe daha ald\u0131k. K\u0131rklar\u0131nda olan e\u015fim, kalp krizinden hayat\u0131n\u0131 kaybetti ve beni yeniden yaln\u0131z b\u0131rakt\u0131. Ger\u00e7ekten yaln\u0131z.<\/p>\n

Fakat beni tutmaya yeten iman\u0131m vard\u0131. Rab \u0130sa Mesih\u2019e olan iman\u0131m arac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131yla ve sadece O\u2019nun l\u00fctfu sayesinde \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m ve ben yava\u015f yava\u015f zorluklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 yendik. <\/p>\n

\u015eimdi d\u00f6n\u00fcp arkama bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda seven Tanr\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ailemi ve beni hayat\u0131n zorluklar\u0131 i\u00e7inde nas\u0131l korudu\u011funu a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7a g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum. Bizleri ger\u00e7ek huzur ve sevin\u00e7le kutsad\u0131. Kurtulu\u015f benim en b\u00fcy\u00fck hazinem. Tanr\u0131\u2019dan gelen bu ruhsal kutsaman\u0131n de\u011ferinin s\u0131n\u0131r\u0131 yoktur ve O\u2019ndan bana ki\u015fisel bir arma\u011fand\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Hayat\u0131m\u0131n bu k\u0131sa anlat\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 iki ayetle bitirece\u011fim:<\/p>\n

\u201cBa\u015fka hi\u00e7 kimsede kurtulu\u015f yoktur. Bu g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcn alt\u0131nda insanlara ba\u011f\u0131\u015flanm\u0131\u015f, bizi kurtarabilecek ba\u015fka hi\u00e7bir ad yoktur.\u201d (El\u00e7ilerin \u0130\u015fleri 4:12, \u0130ncil)<\/p>\n

\u201c\u0130sa ona, \u2018Dirili\u015f ve ya\u015fam Ben’im\u2019 dedi. “Bana iman eden ki\u015fi \u00f6lse de ya\u015fayacakt\u0131r.\u201d (Yuhanna 11:25, \u0130ncil)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u0130sa Nadire\u2019yi Yaln\u0131z B\u0131rakmad\u0131 \u0130smim Nadire. Babam bir S\u00fcnni M\u00fcsl\u00fcman ve K\u00fcrt a\u015firet lideriydi. Annem ise \u015eii M\u00fcsl\u00fcman ve soylu Kajar ailesindendi. Babam ben d\u00f6rt ya\u015f\u0131ndayken \u00f6ld\u00fc. Yedi ya\u015f\u0131ma geldi\u011fimde Tanr\u0131 ve yarat\u0131l\u0131\u015f hakk\u0131nda sorular sormaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Anneme, \u2018Bu d\u00fcnyadaki ya\u015fam\u0131mda kaderime kim karar verdi?\u2019 veya \u2018D\u00fcnya ve g\u00f6kler nas\u0131l yarat\u0131ld\u0131?\u2019 gibi sorular sorard\u0131m. Annem…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1404","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1404","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1404"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1404\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1404"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1404"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1404"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}