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Ger\u00e7eklere Susam\u0131\u015f Birisi<\/h2>\n

\"20New York\u2019ta 1976 y\u0131l\u0131nda \u00fcniversiteye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda yurtta ilk tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m insanlardan baz\u0131lar\u0131 H\u0131ristiyan\u2019d\u0131. O zamanlar herhangi bir inanc\u0131m olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 halde H\u0131ristiyanlarla arkada\u015f olmak ilgimi \u00e7ekiyordu. \u0130yi insanlarla ili\u015fki kurman\u0131n do\u011fru olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum ve dindar insanlar \u2018iyi insan\u2019 kategorisine giriyordu. Yurtta zaman zaman konu\u015fmalar\u0131m\u0131z ruhsal konulara kay\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n

Bir keresinde b\u00f6yle bir tart\u0131\u015fma s\u0131ras\u0131nda fikrini s\u00f6yleme s\u0131ras\u0131 bana geldi\u011finde \u015f\u00f6yle dedim, \u2018Bir Tanr\u0131 var ama insanlar O\u2019na farkl\u0131 yollarla ula\u015fabilirler.\u2019 Sonra biri daha \u00f6nce hi\u00e7 duymad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir \u015fey s\u00f6yledi. \u015e\u00f6yle dedi: \u2018\u0130sa, Tanr\u0131\u2019ya giden tek yoldur.\u2019 \u0130sa\u2019yla ilgili bu ifade o zaman bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemedi\u011fim halde do\u011frudan y\u00fcre\u011fime i\u015fledi.<\/p>\n

Bu H\u0131ristiyanlarla giderek daha seyrek g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m. H\u0131ristiyanl\u0131k konusu a\u00e7\u0131lsa H\u0131ristiyan inanc\u0131yla ilgili bro\u015f\u00fcr verirlerdi. Duygular\u0131n\u0131 incitmemek i\u00e7in al\u0131rd\u0131m ama masam\u0131n \u00e7ekmecesinin en alt k\u0131sm\u0131na koyard\u0131m. Orada \u00f6ylece kal\u0131rlard\u0131. Hi\u00e7 okumazd\u0131m. Y\u0131lsonunda t\u0131p e\u011fitimime devam edemeyece\u011fim a\u00e7\u0131kl\u0131k kazand\u0131. Art\u0131k hayat\u0131m\u0131n bir amac\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissediyordum. Doktor olma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesi hayat\u0131ma y\u00f6n vermi\u015fti. Tap\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir put gibiydi. <\/p>\n

Akademik y\u0131l sona erdi\u011finde anne babam\u0131n T\u00fcrkiye\u2019deki evine d\u00f6nd\u00fcm ve evime yak\u0131n \u00fcniversitenin k\u00fct\u00fcphanesinde Marksizm hakk\u0131nda kitaplar okumaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Bu ideoloji hayat\u0131mdaki bo\u015flu\u011fu doldurmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. <\/p>\n

Sonraki y\u0131l ABD\u2019de ba\u015fka bir \u00fcniversitedeki bir yurda ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131m. K\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre i\u00e7inde koridorun kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki odada kalan bir \u00f6\u011frencinin, ilgi duyan herkesle ruhsal konularda tart\u0131\u015fmaya istekli oldu\u011funu anlad\u0131m. O da H\u0131ristiyan\u2019d\u0131. <\/p>\n

Bu da bana tuhaf bir rastlant\u0131 gibi geldi. Ancak \u015fimdi anl\u0131yorum, Rab \u0130sa Mesih\u2019le ilgili ger\u00e7ekle bir kez daha kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmam Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n merhametli plan\u0131yd\u0131. Ama o zaman \u00f6yle d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmemi\u015ftim. Marksizm\u2019e olan e\u011filimim, H\u0131ristiyanl\u0131\u011fa kar\u015f\u0131 daha d\u00fc\u015fmanca yakla\u015fmama neden oldu. Koridorun kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda yeni tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00e7ocuktan \u0130sa Mesih\u2019in d\u00fcnyaya Yarg\u0131\u00e7 ve Kral olarak tekrar gelece\u011fini \u00f6\u011frendim. Bu, bana inan\u0131lamayacak bir \u015fey gibi geldi. Bana g\u00f6re bu, H\u0131ristiyanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n en zay\u0131f noktas\u0131 gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. B\u00f6ylece bir ak\u015fam d\u00f6nem dersleri hen\u00fcz ba\u015flamadan kendimi arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131n odas\u0131nda buldum. Sohbet ederken masas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinde H\u0131ristiyanl\u0131k hakk\u0131ndaym\u0131\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnen bir kitap fark ettim. Asl\u0131nda Rab \u0130sa\u2019n\u0131n \u0130kinci Geli\u015fi hakk\u0131ndayd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Kitab\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6d\u00fcn\u00e7 ald\u0131m ve o ak\u015fam odam\u0131n sessizli\u011finde kitab\u0131 dikkatli bir \u015fekilde okurken Rab kitapta ilan edilen bildiriyi kabul etmek i\u00e7in y\u00fcre\u011fimi a\u00e7t\u0131. Tanr\u0131, El\u00e7i Pavlus\u2019un bildirisini anlay\u0131p kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k vermek i\u00e7in ger\u00e7e\u011fi arayan ki\u015finin y\u00fcre\u011fini a\u00e7mak i\u00e7in ne yapmas\u0131 gerekiyorsa onu yapt\u0131:<\/p>\n

\u201cOradan da Filipi’ye ge\u00e7tik. Buras\u0131 bir Roma yerle\u015fim merkezi ve Makedonya’n\u0131n o b\u00f6lgesinde \u00f6nemli bir kentti. Birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn bu kentte kald\u0131k. \u015eabat G\u00fcn\u00fc kent kap\u0131s\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p \u0131rmak k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131na gittik. Orada bir dua yeri olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorduk. Oturduk, orada toplanm\u0131\u015f kad\u0131nlarla konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131k. Bizi dinleyenler aras\u0131nda Tiyatira Kenti’nden Lidya ad\u0131nda bir kad\u0131n vard\u0131. Mor kuma\u015f ticareti yapan Lidya, Tanr\u0131’ya tapan biriydi. Pavlus’un s\u00f6ylediklerine kulak vermesi i\u00e7in Rab onun y\u00fcre\u011fini a\u00e7t\u0131<\/em>.\u201d (El\u00e7ilerin \u0130\u015fleri 16:12-14, \u0130ncil)<\/p>\n

Kitab\u0131 ba\u015ftan sona okudum ve sonuna ula\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131mda hayat\u0131m\u0131 tamam\u0131yla \u0130sa Mesih\u2019e teslim ettim. Okudu\u011fum her \u015fey \u0130sa Mesih\u2019in tanr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na i\u015faret ediyordu ve ilk kez bu ger\u00e7e\u011fi g\u00f6rmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m. <\/p>\n

Bundan k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre sonra ilk Kutsal Kitab\u0131m\u0131 ald\u0131m ve okumaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. S\u00f6zleri bana do\u011frudan konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Kamp\u00fcste H\u0131ristiyanlarla da tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. D\u00f6nem aras\u0131nda eve d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde iman\u0131m\u0131 ailemle payla\u015fmam tavsiye edildi. Ben de payla\u015ft\u0131m. Fakat a\u015f\u0131r\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131 koymay\u0131 hi\u00e7 beklemiyordum. Tatilden sonra \u00fcniversiteye geri d\u00f6nd\u00fcm. T\u00fcrkiye\u2019deyken d\u00f6rt ay sonra vaftiz oldum. Vaftizim s\u0131ras\u0131nda iman ikrar\u0131m\u0131 yaparken hala Mesih beni nereye y\u00f6nlendirirse oraya gidece\u011fimi s\u00f6yledi\u011fimi hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum. <\/p>\n

\u0130sa ne dedi?<\/p>\n

“Ben iyi \u00e7oban\u0131m. Benimkileri tan\u0131r\u0131m. Baba beni tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131, ben de Baba’y\u0131 tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi, benimkiler de beni tan\u0131r. Ben koyunlar\u0131m\u0131n u\u011fruna can\u0131m\u0131 veririm. Can\u0131m\u0131 kimse benden alamaz; ben onu kendili\u011fimden veririm. Onu vermeye de tekrar geri almaya da yetkim var.\u201d (Yuhanna 10:14-15, 18, \u0130ncil)<\/p>\n

\u201cKoyunlar\u0131m sesimi i\u015fitir. Ben onlar\u0131 tan\u0131r\u0131m, onlar da beni izler. Onlara sonsuz ya\u015fam veririm; asla mahvolmayacaklar. Onlar\u0131 hi\u00e7 kimse elimden kapamaz.\u201d (Yuhanna 10:27-28, \u0130ncil)<\/p>\n

\u201cBen d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131y\u0131m. Benim ard\u0131mdan gelen, asla karanl\u0131kta y\u00fcr\u00fcmez, ya\u015fam \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na sahip olur.\u201d (Yuhanna 8:12, \u0130ncil)<\/p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Ger\u00e7eklere Susam\u0131\u015f Birisi New York\u2019ta 1976 y\u0131l\u0131nda \u00fcniversiteye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda yurtta ilk tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m insanlardan baz\u0131lar\u0131 H\u0131ristiyan\u2019d\u0131. O zamanlar herhangi bir inanc\u0131m olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 halde H\u0131ristiyanlarla arkada\u015f olmak ilgimi \u00e7ekiyordu. \u0130yi insanlarla ili\u015fki kurman\u0131n do\u011fru olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum ve dindar insanlar \u2018iyi insan\u2019 kategorisine giriyordu. Yurtta zaman zaman konu\u015fmalar\u0131m\u0131z ruhsal konulara kay\u0131yordu. Bir keresinde b\u00f6yle bir tart\u0131\u015fma s\u0131ras\u0131nda fikrini…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1391","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1391","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1391"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1391\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1391"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1391"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1391"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}