{"id":1386,"date":"2025-03-25T16:32:50","date_gmt":"2025-03-25T16:32:50","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/?p=1386"},"modified":"2025-03-25T16:32:50","modified_gmt":"2025-03-25T16:32:50","slug":"ruhsal-yolculugum","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/?p=1386","title":{"rendered":"Ruhsal Yolculu\u011fum"},"content":{"rendered":"

Ruhsal Yolculu\u011fum<\/h2>\n

\"07Merhaba\u2026 Tanr\u0131 ile aramda ki\u015fisel bir ili\u015fki ba\u015flatan ruhsal yolculu\u011fumu a\u015fa\u011f\u0131daki sat\u0131rlar\u0131m arac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131yla sizinle payla\u015fmak istiyorum.<\/p>\n

Tanr\u0131\u2019y\u0131 ilk kez, liseyi bitirmek \u00fczere oldu\u011fum d\u00f6nemlerde d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Liseyi bulundu\u011fum kentin en iyi okullar\u0131ndan birinde okumu\u015ftum, arkada\u015f grubumun i\u00e7inde \u00e7ok sevilen, pop\u00fcler biriydim. Hemen hemen her hafta sonu bir partiye kat\u0131l\u0131yordum ve ya\u015fam\u0131m, e\u011flence f\u0131rsatlar\u0131 ile doluydu. Her gencin zevk alaca\u011f\u0131, mutlu ve sorunsuz bir ya\u015fam s\u00fcr\u00fcyordum. G\u00fcnlerim arkada\u015flar\u0131m ile e\u011flenerek ge\u00e7mekteydi. Lisedeki bu ya\u015fant\u0131m g\u00f6z \u00f6n\u00fcne al\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, asl\u0131nda Tanr\u0131\u2019y\u0131 ve ya\u015fam\u0131n anlam\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeme neden olacak hi\u00e7bir s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131m yok gibiydi.<\/p>\n

Oysa d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan g\u00f6r\u00fcnenin aksine, y\u00fcre\u011fimde tam bir kaos ya\u015famaktayd\u0131m. Tatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m t\u00fcm zevklere ve e\u011flenceli ya\u015fam\u0131ma ra\u011fmen, geceleri uyumak i\u00e7in yatt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 yast\u0131\u011f\u0131ma koyar ve d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye ba\u015flard\u0131m: \u201cYa\u015fam beni nereye g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcyor? \u201cBu d\u00fcnyadaki varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n anlam\u0131 nedir?\u201d Bu sorular\u0131m\u0131 ancak Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n yan\u0131tlayabilece\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum. Bu nedenle Tanr\u0131\u2019y\u0131 tan\u0131ma arzum b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc. Sonunda bir Kuran edindim ve okumaya ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Kuran\u2019\u0131 okumak istemi\u015ftim, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n kim oldu\u011funu merak ediyor ve yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 insanlarla nas\u0131l bir ili\u015fki planlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmek istiyordum. Bir s\u00fcre sonra Kuran\u2019\u0131n sonuna yakla\u015ft\u0131m, ama \u00fcz\u00fclerek \u015funun fark\u0131na vard\u0131m: Kuran\u2019da, sorular\u0131m\u0131n hi\u00e7 birine yan\u0131t bulamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Tanr\u0131 kimdi? Ya\u015fam\u0131n anlam\u0131 neydi? Tanr\u0131\u2019ya nas\u0131l ula\u015fabilirdim? Hala beni tatmin edebilecek hi\u00e7bir yan\u0131ta sahip de\u011fildim.<\/p>\n

Kuran\u2019\u0131 okuduktan sonra, Tanr\u0131 hakk\u0131nda \u015fu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceleri edinmi\u015ftim: Tanr\u0131, insanlar\u0131 yukardan- ya da her yerden- izliyor ve insanlar hata yapt\u0131klar\u0131nda onlar\u0131 cezaland\u0131r\u0131yordu. B\u00fcy\u00fck bir hayal k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131na u\u011fram\u0131\u015ft\u0131m: Kendi kendime, \u201cBu durumda ne yapabilirim?\u201d diye sordum. Akl\u0131ma gelen d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceleri aktaray\u0131m: \u201cBir Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n oldu\u011fu kesindi. Ama bu Tanr\u0131, beni, bana ve ya\u015fam\u0131ma \u00e7ok uzak yerlerden izliyordu. O\u2019nu tan\u0131m\u0131yordum, O da bana kendini tan\u0131tmak i\u00e7in hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yapmad\u0131, bu nedenle Tanr\u0131 ile benim aramda bir ili\u015fki olmas\u0131 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fildi\u201d.<\/p>\n

Yakla\u015f\u0131k alt\u0131 ay boyunca, zihnimde hep bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelere yer verdim. Daha sonra bir g\u00fcn, bir \u0130ncil edinme f\u0131rsat\u0131na sahip oldum. \u0130ncil\u2019de yaz\u0131lanlar\u0131 merak ediyordum. \u0130ncil\u2019i okumay\u0131 istememe ra\u011fmen, yine de daha \u00f6nce \u0130ncil hakk\u0131nda duyduklar\u0131m\u0131n do\u011fru olduklar\u0131ndan emindim: \u201c\u0130ncil de\u011fi\u015ftirildi ve papazlar \u0130ncil\u2019i kendi \u00e7\u0131karlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6z \u00f6n\u00fcnde bulundurarak kullan\u0131rlar. \u201c<\/p>\n

\u0130ncil hakk\u0131nda duydu\u011fum ku\u015fkulara ra\u011fmen, merak\u0131m \u00fcst\u00fcn geldi ve okumaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. \u0130ncil\u2019de dikkatimi ilk \u00e7eken, ko\u015fulsuz ve \u00e7\u0131kars\u0131z sevgiydi. Daha \u00f6nce ara\u015ft\u0131rm\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fum hi\u00e7bir inan\u00e7ta b\u00f6yle bir \u00f6\u011freti\u015f g\u00f6rmemi\u015ftim. \u0130ncil\u2019in tamam\u0131nda, \u0130sa ad\u0131ndaki garip bir adamdan s\u00f6z ediliyordu ve bu \u0130sa, d\u00fcnyada ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f olan t\u00fcm insanlardan ger\u00e7ekten de \u00e7ok farkl\u0131yd\u0131! \u0130ncil\u2019de anlat\u0131lan, insan ya\u015fam\u0131 ve insan ili\u015fkileri konusundaki her g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fe tamamen kat\u0131l\u0131yordum. Bana ters gelen hi\u00e7bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceye rastlamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Bir insan olan beni ve ki\u015fili\u011fimi bana \u00f6ylesine iyi anlat\u0131yordu ki, \u015fa\u015f\u0131r\u0131p kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. \u0130ncil\u2019i okuduktan sonra art\u0131k daha \u00f6nce oldu\u011fu gibi, Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n benim i\u00e7in hi\u00e7 bir \u015fey yapmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesinden de vazge\u00e7mi\u015ftim. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u0130ncil, bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncemin tam kar\u015f\u0131t\u0131 olan ger\u00e7eklere de\u011finmekteydi:<\/p>\n

Bug\u00fcne kadar hep Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n sana uzak oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcn, ama aksine, Tanr\u0131 sana \u00e7ok yak\u0131n. \u00d6ylesine yak\u0131n ki, yakla\u015f\u0131k 2000 y\u0131l \u00f6nce bulundu\u011fun d\u00fcnyaya bir insan bedeninde (\u0130sa Mesih) geldi. T\u00fcm y\u00fcceli\u011finden soyunarak, d\u00fcnyada, ayn\u0131 senin bedenin gibi bir beden i\u00e7inde ya\u015fad\u0131. Bunu sana yak\u0131n olmak i\u00e7in yapt\u0131. Amac\u0131, senin t\u00fcm g\u00fcnahlar\u0131ndan ve sorunlar\u0131ndan kurtulman i\u00e7in sana kurtulu\u015f sa\u011flamakt\u0131. \u00c7arm\u0131ha kendi iste\u011fi ile gitti ve orada senin g\u00fcnahlar\u0131n\u0131n cezas\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6demek i\u00e7in senin yerine \u00f6ld\u00fc. Ve \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc g\u00fcn t\u00fcm g\u00f6rkemi ile \u00f6l\u00fcmden dirilerek sana sonsuz ya\u015fam verece\u011fini kan\u0131tlad\u0131. Sundu\u011fu bu kurtulu\u015f, ancak kabul edip ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n takdirde senindir.<\/em><\/p>\n

O g\u00fcne kadar sevgi ve \u00f6zveri hakk\u0131nda bu okuduklar\u0131mdan daha anlaml\u0131 bir \u00f6rnek ne duymu\u015f ne de g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm. Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n bana olan sevgisinin b\u00fcy\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc ve benim ile ki\u015fisel bir ili\u015fki kurmak istedi\u011fini ilk kez o g\u00fcn duyuyordum. Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n, t\u00fcm bu yapt\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda benden tek istedi\u011fi, \u0130sa Mesih\u2019i Rab ve Kurtar\u0131c\u0131 olarak ya\u015fam\u0131ma davet etmem ve ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131n t\u00fcm y\u00f6netimini O\u2019na teslim etmemdi. Bunu yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m takdirde Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n benim i\u00e7in haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fu sonsuz ya\u015fam\u0131 alacakt\u0131m ve Tanr\u0131, bana her an yan\u0131mda olan bir \u201cBaba\u201d olacakt\u0131.<\/p>\n

1995 y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131n yaz\u0131nda \u0130sa Mesih\u2019i \u201cEfendim\u201d olarak ya\u015fam\u0131ma davet ettim. O g\u00fcnden bu g\u00fcne ya\u015fam\u0131mda ger\u00e7ekten k\u00f6kl\u00fc de\u011fi\u015fiklikler oldu. Bunun nedeni, \u0130sa\u2019n\u0131n s\u00f6z vermi\u015f oldu\u011fu gibi ya\u015fam\u0131ma girmi\u015f olmas\u0131 ve bana yepyeni bir y\u00fcrek vermesiydi.<\/p>\n

Art\u0131k, \u201cTanr\u0131 kimdir?\u201d diye sormaktan vazge\u00e7tim, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc O\u2019nu \u015fahsen tan\u0131yorum ve aram\u0131zda ki\u015fisel bir ili\u015fki mevcut. Art\u0131k ya\u015fam\u0131n anlam\u0131n\u0131n ne oldu\u011funu da merak etmiyorum, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131n y\u00f6netimi Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n elinde ve Tanr\u0131 ile her \u015fey \u00e7ok dolu ve anlaml\u0131. \u00d6nceleri, bir s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131m oldu\u011funda nas\u0131l hareket edece\u011fimi bilemezdim. Ama \u015fimdi Tanr\u0131 her an benimle beraber oldu\u011fundan, s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 O\u2019nun verdi\u011fi \u00f6\u011f\u00fctlere uyarak a\u015fabiliyorum. Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n y\u00fcre\u011fime d\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f oldu\u011fu sevgi, di\u011fer insanlar ile olan ili\u015fkilerimi de olumlu etkiledi. Art\u0131k nefret ve kin duygular\u0131n\u0131 bir kenara b\u0131rakarak, insanlar\u0131 Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n sevgisi ile olduklar\u0131 gibi kabul edip sevmeyi \u00f6\u011frendim. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc Tanr\u0131 da beni kusurlu olmama ra\u011fmen u\u011frumda can verecek kadar \u00e7ok sevmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n

Belki de t\u00fcm bu anlatt\u0131klar\u0131mdan \u00e7ok daha \u00f6nemli olan \u015fey, Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n, bana hi\u00e7bir \u00f6\u011freti\u015fin ya da peygamberin veremeyece\u011fi bir \u201cs\u00f6z\u201d vermi\u015f olmas\u0131yd\u0131: \u201c\u0130sa Mesih\u2019e iman edersen kurtulacak ve Beni g\u00f6receksin!\u201d Bana vermi\u015f oldu\u011fu bu g\u00fcvence i\u00e7in Tanr\u0131\u2019ya te\u015fekk\u00fcr ediyorum ve O\u2019nu \u00f6v\u00fcyorum, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc art\u0131k Tanr\u0131 ile birlikte sonsuza kadar ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131mdan eminim!<\/p>\n

Bu d\u00fcnyadaki ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131 O\u2019na hizmet ederek sevin\u00e7le s\u00fcrd\u00fcr\u00fcyorum. Size ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f olduklar\u0131m\u0131 yazmam\u0131n amac\u0131, bu sevincimi sizler ile payla\u015fmakt\u0131r. Son olarak \u015funu s\u00f6ylemek istiyorum: e\u011fer y\u00fcre\u011finizi \u0130sa Mesih\u2019e a\u00e7arsan\u0131z, siz de benim gibi bol bir ya\u015fama ve asla t\u00fckenmeyecek bir sevince kavu\u015facaks\u0131n\u0131z.<\/p>\n

Bu yazd\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131n sizin i\u00e7in bir anlam ifade etmi\u015f oldu\u011funu ve sizi daha \u00e7ok ara\u015ft\u0131rmaya y\u00f6neltece\u011fini umuyorum.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Ruhsal Yolculu\u011fum Merhaba\u2026 Tanr\u0131 ile aramda ki\u015fisel bir ili\u015fki ba\u015flatan ruhsal yolculu\u011fumu a\u015fa\u011f\u0131daki sat\u0131rlar\u0131m arac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131yla sizinle payla\u015fmak istiyorum. Tanr\u0131\u2019y\u0131 ilk kez, liseyi bitirmek \u00fczere oldu\u011fum d\u00f6nemlerde d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Liseyi bulundu\u011fum kentin en iyi okullar\u0131ndan birinde okumu\u015ftum, arkada\u015f grubumun i\u00e7inde \u00e7ok sevilen, pop\u00fcler biriydim. Hemen hemen her hafta sonu bir partiye kat\u0131l\u0131yordum ve ya\u015fam\u0131m, e\u011flence f\u0131rsatlar\u0131…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1386","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1386","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1386"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1386\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1386"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1386"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cennet.trinitywebhosting.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1386"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}